Friday, February 04, 2005

Another one bites the dust...

What is with our state and scandals? Now State Attorney General Kevin Shelley has submitted his resignation amidst yet another scandal for our state. I read about it in an AP Article in my local Daily News. In this very fair article, the negatives and positives of Mr. Shelley's service to the state were laid out.

Is it any wonder we have so many problems at the local level when we don't seem to know how to elect people who will not open the door to accusations. I don't know if he's guilty of the abuse of voter money mentioned in the article but it is quite clear that with anger management classes and abusive language seen and recorded, he did leave the door open for attacks. One may have nothing to do with the other, but when one's integrity is in question so are all their actions.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

My mind us mush

I have many thoughts right now. Things which concern me. Will the California State Legislature pass physician assisted suicide? What do I think about it?

Still in the works...I struggle because I saw death recently. I watch my grandfather pass away. He has mentally been gone for a while. With dimensia his mind and ability to talk or communicate in any way was gone. He would smile and people would interpret it's meaning. When he had a stroke which caused his breathing to stop for one or two minutes, and then abruptly restart. I don't know all the details and perhaps that is good. But through much difficulty, my mom and uncle decided to have him admitted to hospice. Again, I don't know all the details but I do know what it was like to watch the lack of water and food eat away at his frail body. Is it better to end a life when we know it is ending? I can't agree with it, but the selfish part of me wonders if I would feel the same if the suffering person was me.

Should I be a bag lady? In San Francisco, they have apparently decided to charge extra for the grocery bags. It is their hope to encourage people to bring their own bags to the grocery. The result would be fewer bags creating hideous litter. Not and entirely horrible idea, but slightly embarassing to say the least. What if I don't bring enough bags? Will people purchase reusable bags at a higher cost to help solve the problem? I don't want to be cruel but I think that in order to live in Frisco one has to have an inordinately large back account. An extra $.17 per bag probably bother them a bit.

Baby cries can't leave her, sister enters wearing a lovely taffeta cinderellaesque outfit and wants all my attention too. How to balance...

Loved the state of the union. Detailed but not too detailed, let the politicians get bogged down with that which I can't change or affect. Mr. Bush, I have great respect for you just one thing. Please don't negate any efforts to help our state simply because we have problematic people. They are everywhere. There was a lot of damage in the storms, people need help.

Baby cries again. Writing time is through.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Hoping for a Kind Kindergarden

I wonder if other parents struggle as my husband and I struggle concerning the education of our daughters. It seems there is not a really good choice. My daughter is wired to love being with people. Though I would happily home school her, with her personality, it would simply be cruel. We cannot afford a private school, though I am not entirely convinced they greatly benefit the child as a whole (not just educationally). That leaves our local public school.

I also know the power a teacher wields. Much of the day they are alone with our children and in general we barely know them. I will have to rely on the judgement of those who hired the teacher. By the way, I don't know them either. I can't edit a teacher as I would the T.V. This is frustrating.

Yet, the process begins. Today I have discovered the sign up date for our local school. I believe these years to come will be spent on my knees (literally) much of the time. I feel as though I have so little control over the influences in her life. Praise God, His influence extends beyond all fences and borders in any and every location. I do know Him and I do trust Him.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Mommy Bloggers...are we just me first whiners

This article in the New York Times was listed at Smart Christian and it bothered me a bit. I am a "mommy blogger". The idea that those of us who are moms are strictly trying to get attention for ourselves and take it away from our kids is just plain mean. Perhaps the moms they spoke with or read appear to have recentment or selfishness as their motivator, but there are others I have read who seem to simply want to express their views and give others advice or information. I can think of Michelle Maulkin and Mommy Pundit as good examples of this.

As for me, I am trying to develop my writing skills. I care deeply about the issues of my area and want to watch them myself. I wasn't sure but maybe others might be interested as well. I have become a stay at home mom and I don't want my husband to feel like he is carrying the load all by himself without any attempts on my part to help. I have longed to be a writer for years and not had the time or energy to really put forth an effort. This becomes a tool. I can research the news and political items which are relevant to my family and maybe they will be relevant to others. If not, I am still developing a writing skill which will help with my other goal. I write when my girls are sleeping or having quiet playtime and in this way, it doesn't take away from them. Perhaps the writer of this article should have investigated deeper.

I have even started an occasional other site called Lost and Blind which gives the pastor in me a chance to have short pastoral moments.

Are women supposed to have no interests and no opinions? I don't think historically that has ever really been the case.

Watch out someone else is coining "the Governator" phrase

I was reading various blogs this morning and at Stones Cry Out I see "Once invincible 'Governator' dips". Until this read I had seen no one else call our Governor Arnold, "the Governator". It turns out it is a quote from an AP article of the same title. It is interesting to me that the author of this article points to things like taking on the California Teacher's Association as a reason for the decline in numbers. The team at the beautiful new Stones Cry Out site do a great job of analysing the poll involved. I do think it is possible that his numbers could go down a bit though because of his willingness to have teachers get pay increases based on overall success not just tenure. It is the largest union in the state and if you've read some of my previous articles, you'll know they are trying to grow larger. This will be a battle of Governor Arnie stands by what he said. Quite frankly, if he can do that he'll finally have a fan in me too.